Snapped

Snapping does not have to consist of yelling, hitting, fighting, or cursing. I decided to reverse the way I snap by switching my attitude up by reversing. I decided to walk away and remain content and show love to those who have my best interest...At heart those who never have never part..with me whether I'm doing bad or good and when clearly I'm misunderstood. Those who have stuck with me when I was literally snapping, negative, acting out and not giving a fuck about those who really did care for me. I thank God for the loved ones He placed in my life who was honest with me and told me they had a bone to pick with me. I thank God for those He placed in my life that hurt me to my heart. The ones with blood running through my veins, the ones who consistently caused me pain, mental allergic reactions to the stab wounds in my back infected with more constant lies. 

 Money was my silent partner, the mediator, the middle man, who whispered to me that the more I give the more love I would be given. But as it disintegrated, love turned livid, dissolving into smoke and ice filled hatred. 

  Pain turned into anger, anger turned into pain as more knives entered my heart and back by the people I trusted. But thank God for deliverance, wake up calls, and clearer sight. I was in darkness, pitch blackness and thick forests. Lost, bewildered and confused when all along Christ was my guide and I just didnt know it. I thought I was alone, lost, abandoned and boy was I wrong, little did I know my Father the King was keeping me strong. At the end of the day I inwardly snapped...Turned my back and kept my attention on those that mattered to me..Those who would never hurt me...Actions speak louder than words and I am cashing in on words and not actions...Wondering why I am filled with bitterness and dissatisfaction. Snapped by focusing on success, my happiness, and hard work. Snapped by praying, praising and thanking Him for saving my life. Snapped by contentment, comfort and basking in love from people.